3 DPO-Recurrent Miscarriage, Clomid and Ovidrel

I'm still trucking along.  I'm having some major cramps.  I think I may have had a cyst burst last night.  I need to take pics of my HPT to show the progression.  I currently still have HCG in my system.  I think I'm ready to take a bit of a break.  I just realized the last baby that we saw the heartbeat on and lost has been gone for 9 months.  The baby would have been 3-4 months old.  Totally blows.  I know there has to be a plan. 

1 DPO-Recurrent Miscarriages

It has been determined that I am 1 day post ovulation or 1 DPO.  At around 12:30 a.m. Tuesday morning I had the worst cramping pains on both sides of my abdomen.  I seriously thought my ovaries might explode.  The pain lasted most of yesterday.  But it wasn't horrible all day it felt more like I had done a thousand sit-ups then punched myself in the gut a few dozen times.  But from all the reading I have done the Ovidrel trigger shot (250ug) has you ovulate between 36-39 hours and that is what the pain equals out to be. 

I am beginning to POAS.  I know it's too early!  I'm testing out my trigger shot.  I went to the Dollar Tree and bought a bunch of $1 tests to waste on this fun experiment.  I just can't bare poas and thinking I'm pregnant and it actually the trigger shot.  It was definitely positive today.  I will post a picture tomorrow. 

Clomid, Ovidrel, and Timed Intercourse-Recurrent Miscarriage

My RE gave us 3 cycles to TTC on our own.  All BFN by the way.  Now we are on Cycle 4 of TTC.  I went into the office on cycle day 3.  I had no cysts.  I spoke with the nurse.  They scheduled a HSG.  Gave me 50 mg of Clomid to start on cycle day 3.  And then scheduled me for an ultrasound on cycle day 10.   

I took the Clomid.   I haven't had many side effects from it.  I think I had a couple of hot flashes but it could just be the weather.  (It can't seem to make up it's mind).  I'm glad that there was no mood swings because I really don't think my husband or children will stay with me if I have more mood swings then I already do.

I had my HSG done.  Tubes are open.  No Asherman's.  I had already diagnosed myself with Asherman's because well...I've had about a thousand d and c's from all the miscarriages.  (That may be overstating the number a bit but it feels like it)  They could see my c-section scar but nothing terrible there.

Then comes the ultrasound.  Why day 10?   Well I normally have a positive opk on day 10 around 11 a.m.  But of course I didn't this time.  They did the ultrasound and told me I have a 20mm and 17 mm follicle and that I need to wait until the following day to do the trigger.  I left the office feeling more confused then ever.   She told me NOT to wait for a positive OPK to trigger no matter what the next day.  Didn't give me a time or anything.   So I triggered at 10 a.m. I figured it was 24 hours + some past the appointment time.  I'm a "retired" R. N.  so I thought oh...I can do this little shot all by myself.  I have never laughed/cried so much at the same time ever.  I would count to 3...start to inject myself and stop.  Hesitation is not a good thing.  My DH said he would do it but...he had these really huge fingers and I didn't want him to hurt me.  Eventually after about 10 minutes of craziness.  I did it.  It doesn't hurt.  Just a little burning.  The only symptoms I have so far is sleepiness.  But we DTD last night and have plans to tonight and tomorrow.  I have a feeling this cycle won't work.  I think we triggered a little too early.  We shall see.

AF arrived right on time-3 miscarriages in a row

My cycle runs about 24-25 days long.  It arrived late last night but is now officially "full" flow.  Cycle day 1.   I have to call the RE's office  to inform them, although I have no idea why.  Yay.  Anyway I think I'm starting a low carb diet today.  I think they think I have PCOS.  I don't have a lot of the "normal" symptoms but I'm going to go with the reason I'm fat is because I'm insulin resistant and give low carb a go. 

This is totally F*** up!-Recurrent Miscarriages

We have been TTC for 2 cycles.  And nothing.  Not a faint line on any pregnancy test that I have peed on.  I'm just floored.  I know it can take longer than 2 cycles to become pregnant.  We have never had that happen.  Heck he just looked at me a couple of times and I was with child not for long, but with child.  I just want to go bang my head a door or wall for awhile but I don't want to teach my children bad habits so I will just cuss like a sailor in my head for a few days. 

I should start AF tomorrow and on to a new cycle.  We are trying this month and then waiting a month since it would most likely cause us a end of December baby and we already have one of those :)  I'm trying to decide if I need to temp or just do the OPK's.  I've never temped and I'm already stressed.  Probably not a good idea. 

It has been 4 months since my last post

So in the past four months, what has been happening??  A whole lot of nothing.  I had my RE appointment.  And then a battery of tests.  During this time we have been told I am positive for MTHFR double gene mutation.  Which means I am heterozygous MTHFR?  I think.  My C677 and A1298 genes are the ones affected.  I also found out that I have low progesterone.  My eggs are fine for somebody my age.  They tested my prolactin level and thought I had a pituitary tumor.  So had an MRI.  It was negative.  No tumor.  But my slightly elevated prolactin level is being treated even though I had no symptoms what so ever.  My level was 28 normal high is 18.  So I'm taking Dostinex 0.5mg 2 times a week.  I'm on Metformin 3 times a day at a max dose of 1500mg a day.  I take Folgard 2.2 mg x 2 and Prenatal Vitamin with DHA x1.  After ovulation I must take baby aspirin and progesterone.  We were given the okay to try for a baby this past month.  And we failed.  No pregnancy.  We have never tried and not gotten pregnant so I'm freaked out.  Now I can't get pregnant and can't carry a baby.  Anyway, my period only last 2 days and spotted off and on for 3.  So they want me to come in and do a blood HCG.  I know I'm not pregnant.  I'm concerned I have cysts though.  Anyway just rambling.  I am going to try to keep this updated a bit more now that we are TTC. 

Not much to post-Recurrent Miscarriage

I don't have anything really to update.  I have to go have blood work to make sure my HCG is back to 0 sometime this week.  I'm pretty sure it is after the horrible contraction like pain and heavy bleeding last week.  I've had no more spotting since.  I'm pretty proud of my body for doing what it was suppose to do after it realized the baby shouldn't stay.  Normally I have to have d and c's. 

I'm looking forward to my appointment but also scared.  I don't want to hear they can't do anything for me.  Keep trying til you have one. 

And I'm currently not able to have sex.  They said we couldn't get pregnant until after the appointment for them to help.  Whenever my husband and I think about having sex, I end up pregnant.  Sometimes I feel like just throwing caution to the wind.  Maybe just maybe it was all bad luck.