I'm less than 20 days away from my RE appointment. I'm scared. I'm scared at what they will find, I'm scared they will tell me I won't be able to have baby number 3, I'm scared they won't find anything. I truly hope that there is nothing wrong and I just happened to have 4 miscarriages that were all totally different. That each one was caused by normal reasons and that we are just statistically unlucky. I want to hear you will be able to have a thousand more babies and NEVER have another miscarriage again. I know this is very unlikely. I know that if they don't find something that I will be told to keep going and eventually, maybe I might have another.
I've searched the internet a million times trying to find answers. There are so many possibilities of what could be wrong. I just hope if we find out that it is treatable. And I don't want to have to do IVF. I don't want to spend that kind of money when we can get pregnant.
So I wait. I wait until my next blood draw on Monday to see if my hcg is down to normal. I started heavy bleeding again Weds. and now back to spotting. Hopefully my body took care of it now. This sucks.
I'm sorry you are going through this. I know how you feel. When waiting for tests it is very scarey. So many things are going through your head. What will they find? What if it's nothing?
ReplyDeleteIn my situation, there was nothing wrong. The doctor said that sometimes, there is just no reason. It was like receiving bad good news. I wanted to find something wrong so I could fix it. When there's nothing wrong, what can I fix? I just have to keep trying and hope it doesn't happen again.